finished
it’s finished. that’s it. there is nothing left in my apartment save my TV, bedding, and the food in my fridge. the end of the summer is officially here, marked, checked, over, and I feel at a loss.
if you’ve read anything i have written you know how much this summer has meant to me. life lesson after life lesson, change after change, apology after apology, redo after redo, and prayer after prayer, this summer has molded, shaped, and grown me in more ways than i could have ever imagined.
and it’s over.
with all of these happenings i think the most significant one is the end of being roommates with the same guy i have shared a living space with since freshmen year. he is getting wed to a wonderful and perfect woman for him soon enough, and because of this he has moved out, moved on, and grown up. it’s good, i am happy for him and i respect him so much more than i think he knows but all the while, i am left feeling at a loss. i never would have thought it would be difficult nor did i anticipate feeling so lonely. but in this small way, which just adds to this season of change in my life, i feel uneasy and nervous. again, it’s all good. i have made major changes (literally) and i know that God is going to bless this last year at Cornerstone but, i can’t help to feel like a large part of who i am is gone.
at this time in my life i find myself trying to rely on everything else but God all the while knowing that he is the only one i need to trust.
i know this ended kind of abruptly but that’s my life lately, abruptness in God’s plan for me seems to be a common theme. and in a strange way, i’m okay with that.
