I’ve spent the last two days searching for the perfect place to start new. A place to write and share about what I think it means to live better, to not suck at life, or to matter today.

And I’ve wound up back here.

gut|feelings.

This is my virtual home away from home. My think pad, my show-and-tell. 

It hit me today that I had been looking for the wrong answer. . I wanted people to see what I had to say because I wanted to say something important. I wanted to be heard and to be recognized for what was said.

Right now, that’s not going to happen… and honestly, I’ve stopped believing that it will.

Right now, all I need is a place where I can get things out of my head and into the “cosmic void” that is life.

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It’s been a tough year.

The last post I shared was about leadership and then before that about Zambia. God’s good and these things have grown in me and after a roller coaster summer I am ready to do this again… more for myself than anything.

It’s been a tough year. Aside from marrying the love of my life this summer threw so many punches our way I didn’t know if I wanted to push myself off of the ropes. It’s been a summer of loss, deep loss, and at the same time on of hope, because honestly what else is there left to do. Like I said, it’s been a tough year… but Cait and I are hanging on as best as we can with the help of the people who love us.